November 9, 2012 § Leave a comment
Yesterday I posted on my Facebook that my husband was so kind and put up my Christmas decorations and had Christmas Music playing for when I got home from work. It was so kind of him to think of me like that. Most of my friends loved the status but I had a few people saying it’s too early for it. I think it’s because they do not understand why it is so important to me.
When I was 10 years old I lost my mother to cancer. She died about a month after Christmas. That was one of the worst Christmases I had ever had. My mom was so sick she got out of bed long enough to sit on the couch and watch my brother and I open our gifts. She then promptly had to go back to bed. I don’t remember seeing her after that.
I am sure at this point you are wondering what kind of cancer she had. I don’t remember what it is called but the cancer was eating her flesh. My mom hated for us to see her because she did not want us to remember like that. it was hard not seeing my mom for the last couple of months she was alive. She fought for 3 years having gone through radiation and chemotherapy. After she died I dreaded every holiday especially Christmas.
The first Christmas without my mom New Song came out with the song “Christmas Shoes.” I remember hearing it in the car with my dad and brother. we pulled into the garage of our house and I am mostly positive we were all crying. I may sound like a horrible person but I cannot stand that song to this day. It brings back the memory of the last Christmas with my mom and it makes me depressed.
Christmas has gotten better for me over the years with my little brother and with my wonderful second mom. But Christmas was made even better when Patrick and I got married. I realized he and I would get to start our own traditions and celebrate the way we wanted. When we have kids our traditions are going to be even more fun. I seriously cannot wait.
This year since we are not going home until after the holidays that fact that Patrick even thought about how important Christmas is to me just fills my heart with joy. He knows I have been missing my family like crazy since I haven’t seen them since February and not being home for Christmas for the third year in a row, he does what he can to bring joy to my life.
I hope this helps everyone to understand why Christmas is important to me. Have a fabulous day and an even better weekend. Love to all.