April 5, 2013 § Leave a comment
Last night I had the honor of going to the table reading for my friend Lauren’s show called “thE rEAsOn.” It was fantastic and I cannot wait to share more about that project. Those are details that should be coming soon! I did get to hangout with a new friend and she is always full of wisdom.
We discussed job situations and how people view us. I told her I didn’t feel like people took me seriously. It’s something I have struggled with for a few years. A month from today, I will be turning 24. In my 24 years, I have graduated high school and college and I have been married for almost four years. That should constitute that I am a serious person and not a flake. I mean I have even endure tragedies in my life. My mother passed away when I was 10 and since then I have lost a number of relatives including grandparents. I have moved a few different times in the last few years to different states. It’s not like I have not experienced life.
Then I said to my friend, “I guess people don’t take me seriously because I don’t take myself seriously.”
Her reply was simply, “Yes, that’s exactly it.”
Really? I guess I need to get serious about myself. So I looked up a verse I remembered hearing in youth group. Proverbs 23:7, “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he: Eat and drink, saith he to thee; but his heart is not with thee.” Dang it. I don’t take myself seriously. I am still struggling with how to take my self more seriously. The first step is to be more self-confident, I think. Not being arrogant in who I am, but discovering that I am a capable person. I probably also need to find my self-worth and that I can find in God. He thinks I am worthy of His son dying for my sins so I can spend eternity with Him. Yikes! that also means I need to live my life according to His will. What a challenge to accept. To live for Christ and be more serious about the talents He has given to me. I am not perfect but I will strive to be the best that I can as i live for my Savior.