Goodbye 2014, Hello 2015?
January 6, 2015 § Leave a comment
Happy New Year! The last week people have been reflecting on 2014 and all the great things that happened and what their plans are for 2015. I’m not going to lie, I wasn’t completely excited about 2014 and I’m very unsure of 2015. Don’t get me wrong; some really fun things happened in 2014 and I will cherish those memories. But, some not so fun things happened that are slowly changing my life, mostly for the better.
I’m sure you are wondering what could be bad but yet change you for the better? I found out this year I have a condition called PCOS. Basically, it makes it more difficult for me to get pregnant because my cycles are out of whack, my hormones get a little crazy, my weight is an issue and a lot of other things. (For more information this helps explain a little bit more in-depth: http://www.pcosdietsupport.com/pcos-symptoms/pcos-explained-partner/). Now that I am aware of this, I have been striving to make healthier choices for myself and my family. I have learned a lot about myself through this process.
This year has just been such an emotional roller coaster figuring all of this out. I’ve learned that when I get sad, I really need to find something fun to do that is also relaxing. I turn to coloring in those moments. I realize that sounds childish but it is so therapeutic for me. I also write. Sometimes I write out feelings and other times I write my prayers to the Lord. Again, this calms me and brings me away from the sadness or anger that I am feeling in a moment. I have also been cooking like crazy. Pinterest has helped me to find so many new and healthy recipes. Patrick, my husband, has been loving the new food! I’m glad he gets some of the benefits of my calming strategies.
That’s something else good that has come out of the chaos of this emotional roller coaster. Patrick and I have learned even more about each other and we have grown together. He touches my heart in my blow up moments and my breakdown moments. He’s there with tissues, a glass of water and the best hugs. Patrick has my heart held tightly and I’m so thankful for him. He has shown me what a man is supposed to be to his wife. He’s as understanding as a guy can be when emotions are running crazy. My dearest love, Patrick, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love you!
How do I move forward in 2015? I fully intend on continuing my food adventures through Pinterest making healthy but delicious food and I plan on doing the things that make me happy. Together hubs and I are trying to lead a healthier life by committing to working out even if it is just a walk around our neighborhood or even walking to dinner when we go to some of the restaurants close to our place. I also want to invest into some of my friendships that have just started and continue to grow friendships that are established. This may be another year of an emotional roller coaster but I am glad to have my husband, family and friends supporting me. Here’s to 2015, whatever it may hold, may God give me the strength to continue to move forward.
*Please note that I do not want pity. Instead, just be supportive. Your prayers and words of encouragement help. You can also read this blog post, http://lovelylittlelife-hannah.blogspot.com/2013/07/9-things-infertile-women-want-women.html, to more fully understand what I need in this time.*
Thank you for reading, understanding, prayers and words of encouragement.