March 1, 2016 § Leave a comment
Just a few weeks ago I had a post about how I was dealing with my infertility. It’s now after midnight and I could not go to bed without writing about a bad day. Yesterday was probably one of the worst days I have had in awhile. I woke up from a terrible dream and I just couldn’t shake it. I kept trying to talk myself out of it.
“This moment is a bad moment. Not every moment or even everyday is like this.”
I tried repeating this about 5 times. Yeah, it didn’t help. What was I supposed to do? The anxiety of the day got me from the time I woke up until the afternoon. I did text a couple of friends asking for prayers. When I have a bad day I try to let a few people including my husband know just so that I don’t feel completely alone. My friends know how to get my mind off thoughts that trigger my anxiety and get me to focus on other things. They will send me GIFs and pictures of pizza. I mean, how can you not be happy when you receive a GIF of pizza raining down. My friends get me.
Anyhow, I did finally get calmed down enough that I was excited to go out for a friend’s birthday. How did I get calmed down? I received an encouraging a text from a friend. She had no idea of my emotional state. The text instantly gave me perspective on how one bad day doesn’t mean I am worthless. Now, every time I have a bad day, I don’t get an encouraging text from a friend. I was just lucky that this friend reached out in a moment I desperately needed hope. I also spent some of the afternoon focusing on practicing my crocheting skills.
I’m glad that yesterday was a bad day. I have some events/friend meet-ups I am looking forward to this week. Having this bad day sucks, but it makes the good days even better. I know I can overcome the bad days and that a new day is just a day away.
May this be encouragement to those who are struggling with anxiety or bad day(s). Reach out to a few friends so someone knows that you are needing support. It has helped me countless times to reach out when I have a bad day.
Love to you all,